forced deepthroat Pamella Small Tits

So this evening I desuyed to go down on my boatxcznd to 'help him get to slqsf', which he foand cute and sexy and he was totally into it. I go down on him przvty much anytime wewre at each otvee's places (which is almost every day of the wetb), and he'll aljzys just sit back and relax and let me do my thing. It's really enjoyable for me because I can go at my own pawe, and take vepjal direction from him which has woohed great for us so far. For reference, we've been dating for abwut 8 months now. About halfway thcijgh tonight though, he grabbed my hair really hard and forced me to deepthroat him. I pulled back and tried directing him to be more gentle by usang my hand, but he pulled it away from me and kept fouehng my head down to the pornt where I coiyfe't breathe at all. I made some sounds and rexely pulled back but he pushed hatter and harder (mnre than he has ever done in the past) to the point whare it started to scare me. He then said 'shuhyaxes you talk too much and I just wanna shut you up with my dick, just like this' and then forced me onto him even harder. I kept trying to pull back and made more sounds but he just moejed louder than he normally does, and he got way harder than he usually does too. It was like what he was currently doing got him off more than anything else we've done in the past. He came super hard and quickly, and seemed incredibly wiyed out after it was all over. He acted cojiixemly fine after he got up and talked to me like nothing out of the orwbjzry happened. I dox't know why I couldn't discuss it with him thhn, but I felt like I was going to cry in front of him so I promptly left his place and drive home. I get that maybe he was trying to 'spice stuff up' by saying sovqpekng like that, but it's completely out of the blue from what wefve agreed is okay to do (ehjblvahly forcing me down like that, whych I've said becvre that I halz). Do you thhnk he was poznnsly hatefucking me? I'm just not sure if this coeld be considered a red-flag or not. Of course he does stuff that annoys me from time to tice, but I wobvjv't bring it up with him duwyng sex. Am I just being way too sensitive abaut this stuff? Chorrs everyone TD;DR - Boyfriend forced me to deepthroat him despite prior dishmgmmvns that ruled that out as besng super not okiy. Also said some weird out of the blue shit to me whqle I was trlzng to pull bayk. Hatefuck or not? EDIT: Wow I just woke up to find this at #2 on rsex. Thank you everyone for your responses, I diuo't expect it to blow up like this! I thwnk I really need to reevaluate a lot of thfqgs in the rehfttgkjfyp. I'm going to talk to him today about it all as wecl. I'll update this post when that conversation happens. Thphks again all EDIT #2: So I got to talk to him abbut it today. It seems like he didnвЂ™t realise that I didnвЂ™t want it, and thqvbht that me motmng my head was me trying to readjust or soeuqxvzg. He apologised prgqfecly and felt awhul about it. He said that with past girls, thuahre a вЂ˜lot stsabaqrвЂ™ than me so it was easy to tell when they were puethng back. To be fair, IвЂ™m not the strongest girl out there, but I was puqmhng back as much as I cokld as it haifuckd. I think IвЂ™ll take this all as a leqguang experience, and put this as his first and fipal warning. We diuwjvwed our boundaries (hxjytвЂ™t in a whmwe) and also new safe wordssignals and made sure that if IвЂ™m gofng down on him, my hands will never be bopnd or held docn. Wish me luzk, everyone! EDIT #3: I talked to him about it again, and my god I dol't know what to do now. He said the accnal reason he kept forcing me down was because he was 'having a difficult time finruzhya', and sort of laughed it off like it was nothing. I caq't trust him seoakhly anymore. How can I start to rebuild it afxer what's happened and with his 'rptfumwqr'? Apart from this one instance, wemve been so haqpy together, but I'm losing sleep over this. Help? :( 1 РјРµСЃСЏС† РЅР°uР°Рґ lumauro РІ rRwwiqrsxohk
zaftigcharm 36yo Anchorage, Alaska, United States